Someone just read my mind and put it in a quote.

DAMNNNN RIGHTTT.

I hope that fucker who stole my laundry from my laundry line dies from a weird STD or a genital wart.
I CURSE YOU SERIOUSLY.
That bitch selectively stole all my fave items which i hung out to dry for a couple hours and left a few item of clothing.
MAY YOUR SOUL BURN IN THE FIERY PITS OF HELL.
D: UGHHHHH CURSE U

Today, i went out of Perth with my brother and his girlfriend.
To the little island of Rottnest.
For once, i just felt happy.
A single emotion coursing through my veins and spirit.
I tried to remember how it felt like, so that in my sad moments, i can relieve this feeling over and over again.
Like magic air captured in a vase, with each whiff, it disappears but it was never there to begin with.

This few days have been pretty rough for us.
I don't really like to blog explicitly what happened but i just want to say thank you for giving me another chance. I'm terrified of a life without you, moses.
You're my pillar of support and strength.
And i feel lost, like i lost a part of me when i'm not together with you.
I will be the person you see worth putting in your time and effort.
And when i look at you, smile and say, " i love you, b"...you will know that i truly mean it.

I'm thankful and i know i don't deserve it.

I'm no good for you.

I'm in love with his voice.

MAD CRAVINGS AT NIGHT.

Repost from fauxpauh/BS

I wonder what happened to everybody's feelings. Do they even exist anymore? People try so hard to conceal them and bury them. Act like they have no insecurities and paint a beautiful picture of their lives. And for what?


Half of them are probably laden with troubles from school, work, relationship or even friendship problems. But nobody seems to have one already. Their lives are merely filled with materialistic possessions that cost 2.5k only to be used a few times to impress others, food that look good but might not even taste half a good as it looks. Or photograph themselves at an angle they don't even look like most of the time.. I do all of that too. Guilty as charged. But for what? I look back and realise how much I've missed out. That piping hot crispiness of that chicken when it first came out of the pan. I've missed out on actual memories. We surely want to create a pretty painting of our lives but it's all a lie.


We build this image of ourselves we're not even. We perceive and judge people based off how they act and behave but not who they truly are. We create identities for people we don't even talk to or don't even know. It's disgusting.

Nobody wants to hear a whiny bitch or read a blog full of procrastination. I'm just saying it's okay to share your real thoughts and feelings. But what happened to feelings? Is blogging just an avenue for your readers who don't even know you or don't even love you? What happened to penning down your real genuine thoughts?


I'm so tired of hiding everything I feel. I cry anywhere anytime and throw my tantrum at the wrong places as I have a very difficult time controlling my emotions. Am I not allowed to express my real emotions now? To pacify and please the people around me? Of course nobody likes to be around somebody like that but if you really love me as a friend I really hope you can live with that. Of course not every other day but on the occassions that I really need care and concern. I'm tired of having to comfort people when I'm not even feeling good about myself. The irony and the hypocrisy sickens me. I'm so tired. I blogged about my feelings. Yes and i feel a hell lot better now

Infinite.

Second week of uni is over and the third week is about to start. 

Assignments are due in week 4 and i have yet to start on my 3 major assignments :/

It seems like i have lost interest in blogging or keeping a life online? * inserts a sad face *

Maybe i have grown up and matured from this phase where i need people to know what's happening in my life. Perhaps also why i disabled my fs.
Me and Mo have been good so far and come july...it would have been a year since i knew him.
Time passes really fast. Midway through March, bam!

Next thing you know, it is 2014.
I just feel like even though me and mo have so many pressing issues against us ( his family/friends/blah blah), im just glad that at the end of the day, when i strip him down to his core person and him in his ugliest or unglamest...i still wanna shower affection and love to him.
Never felt like this before.
Never felt this blessed and grateful before.
The struggles and trials that our r/s goes through proves to me how much we are still there for each other and how we promised not to give up even when the going gets tough.

Bangkok fund is on the way, my job is pretty good.
Hopefully in july, i get a break with him.
Really need it....
Speaking of which, Mo is getting his car pretty soon. Makes it so much easier to travel everywhere.
Just ranting again....
Okay which reminds me why i have a private blog. away from this space.

SO TILL MY LIFE GETS EXCITING... (im quite happy the way it is 70% of the time lol)
See yaaaaa.

First week of uni has been not too bad, feeling slightly tired and drained out from waking up at 8am classes.
As some of you guys would know, i do have a part-time job now in Aussie! :)
So, cheers to me making some pocket money and some of that pocket money going into this little fund that Moses and me have created.
This little fund is of course, directed to our BKK trip in July in which we are just gonna spend like kings and queens~ Can't wait to be honest.
Just us, one week, in somewhere foreign.
Away from everyone, everything. Away from familiarity.
A good constant reminder in which i know, all we are doing for each other will be worth it at the end of the day. Thats why, i remind myself all the time whatever trials we go thru, i look it as a greater challenge and reminder to be matured about the way i handle things.

Moses is getting his license pretty soon and i can't wait to go places with him.
having this distance thing between us now is a little inconvenient but then again, it makes me cherish and treasure whatsoever little time and moments we have together.
Just spending countless of days doing nothing, cooking, exercising and lying down beside each other and smelling your familiar scent is enough for me.

So many people are just against us being together, claiming you or myself is not good enough for either parties. But we have fought so hard to be together, honestly no one knows how exhausting this can be.
Everyday i wake up thankful and blessed to be together with you.
You are enough for me and whatever comes our way, i still love you deeply.

Right now, i think i have grown and matured so much that i have realised this little changes in myself and how i view certain things now.
I know what i want and im not afraid to fight for it.

Anyway, i have work tmr which is surprisingly not too bad ( how bad can a cashiering job be right?! haha) and gym beckons tmr too.

Oh and 爱心早餐 from my beloved my boo. ♥

Le humble sandwich with a bullseye egg and hot sauce packed nicely and delivered :3

Need to have a clean weekend. My diet of course.
Adios Amigo.

If that person means so much more than an issue,
you would let that issue go rather than the person.

“Don’t get me wrong.. I think physical intimacy is very important in a relationship but for me, the one physical aspect that matters the most.. is the physical presence. That, is also what I reckon made you fall in love with him.

 “Okay this, I really want to know…” she said.

 “The physical presence is simply being there. You want him to be with you. You want to be there for him. Because just being there with or for each other makes your day, or you as a person, a little better. You may act or behave a little different when you’re with him, but in a good way – in a way that you actually feel completely comfortable, safe and you. Perhaps even without you knowing, you smile more and laugh harder. You feel real, genuine joy. And even on days when the smile can’t happen, you know you don’t have to pretend to be okay or be self conscious in front of him; because its perfectly okay to be the way you are and feel when you’re with him. He cares about you and you feel loved when you’re with him. Sometimes, there are no need for words or explanations.. just his presence, him being there for you, holding you.. makes you feel better or believe that it’s going to be okay again. Because you’re not just holding on to someone for attention or sympathy.. you actually feel and believe that you’re holding on to a part of or the rest of your life..”

The road to hell is paved with good intentions.

Would you be my valentine? ♥

Hello guys!

Currently chilling with no makeup and watching 2 broke girls :D
M wants me to get started on Vampire Diaries. I could only find seasons 1 and 4 -_-
I love The Walking Dead though. Currently through all 3 seasons.

Just finished a really awesome time at the gym today!
Sorta finished a gym routine from bodybuilding.com.
Today was a BUM BUM day. my butt hurts like D:
Esp. my glutes.
It was especially encouraging that i got tips and advices from the older buff dudes in the gym :)
The thing is that many girls and the media often tell you girls shouldn't lift weights and all but the thing is that if you wanna look like this:

You've gotta start lifting weights like your fat butt needs it.

We girls have just a fraction of males hormone in our body aka testosterone, so we really shouldn't worry about looking like Arnold whatever his last name is.

I mean it is not that i have suddenly gone into a fitness or weight-lifting frenzy but i have seen much improvement in my lower half of my body.
Aka my problem areas like my bum and my thighs.
I can never please everyone but for me, due to the fact i'm naturally bigger downstairs than upstairs, i have little choice but to tone it up.
Who wanna see jigglypuffs when i wear a pair of denim shorts right?
Plus, you feel so much more comfortable in wearing shorts or dresses once you start hitting the gym and doing weights. Well......that's how I feel.

Digressing, just wanted to blog about Vday with my boo.
None other than Mo himself!
He came over to my place and we had plans to try out Aisuru Sushi @ Northbridge.
we did our little homework of where to eat and this was definitely such a good decision!
NO REGRETS 100%.
FOOD WAS FABULOUS.

This was an entirely different look i was going for.

you would usually spot me in my heavy clubbing makeup but i wanted to try something fresh and fun.

I combined purple and baby pink for my eyes and i put white eyeshadow near the tearducts to 'open' my eyes. Coupled with falsies and a nice bright pink lippie, viola!~

Mo being annoying cute at the back. -.-

Guys......... * sighs *

So, Mo saw me taking selfies and he was like " Hey, i wanna do selfies too! "

So here are 2 of his renditions.

#1

( I think he was ready to laugh at his own self after this. LOL)

#2

(Obviously acting like he's not the one taking the pic. 

He must have been like , "Oh look a handsome one of myself....taken by myself. " HAHA)

My happy pills ♥

Absolutely love this picture of us ♥

Showing off 'em pearlies :B

Blessed to be with you.

Making him carrying the box i made!
I stuck stickers on it saying " Be My Valentine " and decorated the box.
Filled it with red chocolate hearts, a card and a bear that says " I love you " sprayed with my perfume.
Yeah, im such a sucker for romance.
#diehardromantic

Thanks for the balloon and plastic roses! ♥
He knew real ones would die, hence the plastic ones.

I swear i almost fell in love with him when i saw him walking in so early to my house with the balloon sticking out of his bag....bahaha so cute. Like a messenger cupid :D

Mandatory shot of my vday prezzie.

Otw to da sushi place~

We had to wait for around 150-20 mins because they don't take reservations.
But judging from the crowd, y'knw what they say in SG
If there's a queue for it, it is bound to be something worth trying.



Finally got a counter seat!
We secretly wanted this because we could see the chefs blow-torching the tuna or fatty salmon...

Well y'knw us being us. We are easily fascinated. LOL.




Zee Menu.

I sometimes forget what i eat.
Taking a pic of the menu helps me.



Black Velvet Roll.
Tempura prawns, seared tuna, cucumber, crabstick wrapped in nori and sushi rice.
Topped with creamy avocado and black cavier with chilli mayo.
Now, if you thought that was a mouthful to say, think of you swallowing it.

* BOOM *


FOODGASM.

Torch Roll.

With something so bright and vivid, i had a colourful explosion of happiness in my mouth.
I love love love crunching on those crunchy fish roe eggies! :3

Salmon Skin And Unagi Roll.
Mo is a sucker for Unagi... like mad loves it.

So this was his choice. 

These was so tasty and of course, so darn delicious.

Imagine my internal conflict of throwing down my camera in wild abandonment + totally ignoring the fact i have to take pretty pics of it and charging towards these delicious morsels of sushi
That is what i call, a big life dilemma.

Wagyu grade 7 beef in ponzu sauce with tempura batter.
The beef was so good.
Just wish it was plain seared without the tempura.
I couldn't get the full beefy flavour :(

THE STAR OF THE NIGHT.
TRUFFLE CORN TEMPURA.
COOKED WITH TRUFFLE OIL AND GENEROUSLY DRIZZLED WITH MAYO AIOLI.

This was just a genius amalgamation of flavours.
SG jap restuarants must really bring this in.

Oh and yes, they cut the corn FRESH off the cob.
No gimmicky frozen stuff here.

Finished off our meal with dessert from Meetfresh which wasn't very good.
I rather much have Taro Taro anyday.

Simple quiet dinner but i'm truly happy :)

Off to shower now and start handing in job resumes again tmr! 

Can't wait to see my boo again tmr :*)